I survived my first term at Kaplan and am ready to take on the second, complete with two online classes...but Mom won't be with me, at least not in body.
She passed away a few days after I did my final exams. It was a blessing because she was in so much pain at the end. It was time for her to go home to her Heavenly Father, but I miss her so much!
In late October, she had taken a fall at home (a few days after I'd been there for the weekend!), and Dad realized that she could no longer be at home. As a result, we had her put in a nursing home in Davenport and there she stayed until she finally passed away. Dan, Dave, and I visited her when we could.
I love you, Mom, forever...
Slan go foill...
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
Well into the semester...and a visit home...
Two weeks down, eight more to go. Wow, in another two weeks, I'll be having my midterms.
I like my Arts and Humanities class. In fact, I've put together the format for my first paper so I can finish typing it where and when I need.
Business Law is pretty cool too, but not as much fun as Arts and Humanities. I am learning a lot about the law.
Dave and I went down to Muscatine to see Mom and Dad. She's already gotten things ready for the hospice care and the nurse does want to talk to Dan, Dave, and me. Perhaps when I'm not so bogged down with schoolwork and have a spare moment, we can go down and she can come over and answer the questions we have. It's a necessary evil, for sure, and it must be done.
Slan go foill...
I like my Arts and Humanities class. In fact, I've put together the format for my first paper so I can finish typing it where and when I need.
Business Law is pretty cool too, but not as much fun as Arts and Humanities. I am learning a lot about the law.
Dave and I went down to Muscatine to see Mom and Dad. She's already gotten things ready for the hospice care and the nurse does want to talk to Dan, Dave, and me. Perhaps when I'm not so bogged down with schoolwork and have a spare moment, we can go down and she can come over and answer the questions we have. It's a necessary evil, for sure, and it must be done.
Slan go foill...
Friday, September 25, 2009
Prying open the wounds again...
We finally got a time frame for how long Mom's going to be here. The doctors have said that she has six months to a year. She could've done some more chemotherapy treatments, but they would've been so debilitating that it just wouldn't be worth her while.
The plan is that she's going to stay home for the time being and have hospice care. There will be nurses who will come in and help her when needed. My brothers and I will try to get down there to visit when we can, but Mom's made it clear that she wants us to get on with our own lives. For me, that entails continuing with my education at Kaplan and working.
I have to keep telling myself that whatever happens the Lord is in it...
Slan go foill...
The plan is that she's going to stay home for the time being and have hospice care. There will be nurses who will come in and help her when needed. My brothers and I will try to get down there to visit when we can, but Mom's made it clear that she wants us to get on with our own lives. For me, that entails continuing with my education at Kaplan and working.
I have to keep telling myself that whatever happens the Lord is in it...
Slan go foill...
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Embracing my inner Tomorrow Person
I was a fan of this show in the 90's when I was in high school and college.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
"Whatever happens, the Lord is in it..."
This quote came from the movie "Joseph Smith, Prophet of the Restoration" and it was said by Hyrum Smith when he and the Prophet Joseph Smith were preparing to go to Carthage. I've been saying this quote over and over in my mind because of some sad happenings in my life as of late.
My mother's been sick with cancer since last fall when I was preparing to move to Coralville. The only reason I didn't say anything on this blog was out of respect for her privacy, but now there's nothing left to lose.
The doctors have said that it's terminal now, but they didn't give her a timetable on how long she has left. For now, she's staying with me in Coralville so she can get to her treatments (she can't drive anymore so my roommate takes her.).
When I was told about the cancer getting worse earlier this summer, I was beginning my preparations for returning to college to work on my bachelor's degree. I had confided in a friend from the Nauvoo pageant about Mom because he'd met her before and I'd also confided the fears that she wouldn't live to see me get my degree. He said, "If you work hard in getting your education, the Lord will take care of your mother." This was definitely NOT what I had in mind!
I'm trying to be strong for her, but it's hard. Sometimes it hits me and I just want to cry and rage. I feel like I'm being cheated out of things that a daughter should have with her mom; like having Mom there waiting for me to come out of the temple after being married to my future eternal companion; or having Mom there when I have my first baby. My future spouse is being cheated out of his mother-in-law, and my future children are being cheated out of having their grandma here to play with them.
My "sister" Melissa has been telling me as of late that the Lord's ways are higher than our ways, and in His wisdom, all will be made right in time. I don't know how that can be. I guess it's time to start practicing some faith, and believe that "Whatever happens, the Lord is in it."
Slan go foill...
My mother's been sick with cancer since last fall when I was preparing to move to Coralville. The only reason I didn't say anything on this blog was out of respect for her privacy, but now there's nothing left to lose.
The doctors have said that it's terminal now, but they didn't give her a timetable on how long she has left. For now, she's staying with me in Coralville so she can get to her treatments (she can't drive anymore so my roommate takes her.).
When I was told about the cancer getting worse earlier this summer, I was beginning my preparations for returning to college to work on my bachelor's degree. I had confided in a friend from the Nauvoo pageant about Mom because he'd met her before and I'd also confided the fears that she wouldn't live to see me get my degree. He said, "If you work hard in getting your education, the Lord will take care of your mother." This was definitely NOT what I had in mind!
I'm trying to be strong for her, but it's hard. Sometimes it hits me and I just want to cry and rage. I feel like I'm being cheated out of things that a daughter should have with her mom; like having Mom there waiting for me to come out of the temple after being married to my future eternal companion; or having Mom there when I have my first baby. My future spouse is being cheated out of his mother-in-law, and my future children are being cheated out of having their grandma here to play with them.
My "sister" Melissa has been telling me as of late that the Lord's ways are higher than our ways, and in His wisdom, all will be made right in time. I don't know how that can be. I guess it's time to start practicing some faith, and believe that "Whatever happens, the Lord is in it."
Slan go foill...
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
New developments in my life...
Well, there's a lot that's been happening...
For one thing...I got a promotion at work! I'm now a Telephone Account Manager for Office Depot. It means I only call a certain territory of customers once a month and check on them; see if they need any supplies and such.
Update # 2...I'm going back to college! Yep, that's right, my faithful readers. Three years after attending MCC, I'm going back to school. I'll be going to Kaplan University, majoring in Business Administration. I'll be working on my bachelor's degree.
Update # 3...I've made a decision, and I'm going to stick to it this time. I'm going out for the Nauvoo Pageant next year. I checked with my academic advisor about it, and she said that I could take a summer term off to do it. Besides, a friend in the core cast (and you know who you are!!!!) has been wanting me to do it since 2005 when the pageant started. And after what happened last summer with Lucky Stiff, I think it's time for me to do a drama production with other LDS peeps.
That, my friends, is what's going on with me lately.
Slan go foill...
For one thing...I got a promotion at work! I'm now a Telephone Account Manager for Office Depot. It means I only call a certain territory of customers once a month and check on them; see if they need any supplies and such.
Update # 2...I'm going back to college! Yep, that's right, my faithful readers. Three years after attending MCC, I'm going back to school. I'll be going to Kaplan University, majoring in Business Administration. I'll be working on my bachelor's degree.
Update # 3...I've made a decision, and I'm going to stick to it this time. I'm going out for the Nauvoo Pageant next year. I checked with my academic advisor about it, and she said that I could take a summer term off to do it. Besides, a friend in the core cast (and you know who you are!!!!) has been wanting me to do it since 2005 when the pageant started. And after what happened last summer with Lucky Stiff, I think it's time for me to do a drama production with other LDS peeps.
That, my friends, is what's going on with me lately.
Slan go foill...
Sunday, July 5, 2009
I have survived...
It's official: I have survived training!
Tomorrow will be the big test, and my first FULL day on the phones at work. I'm a little nervous and am hoping that I'll be a little more comfortable with the call flow. I think after three days away from work and totally resting up, I should be fine.
I like my new co-workers, and am hoping to be a light and example to them. Perhaps things at TMone will be better than they were at TLCA. The environment's ten x better by far, but I think we're still in the honeymoon stage. I shall wait and see what happens.
Slan go foill...
Tomorrow will be the big test, and my first FULL day on the phones at work. I'm a little nervous and am hoping that I'll be a little more comfortable with the call flow. I think after three days away from work and totally resting up, I should be fine.
I like my new co-workers, and am hoping to be a light and example to them. Perhaps things at TMone will be better than they were at TLCA. The environment's ten x better by far, but I think we're still in the honeymoon stage. I shall wait and see what happens.
Slan go foill...
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