Kristy and I were looking at my grades before my online seminar tonight and there's a possibility that I could be on the Dean's List. That's never happened before.
Not to be prideful or anything, but...it feels GREAT!!!!!!
Slan go foill...
Monday, January 25, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Truth is the hardest tale to tell...
It is as the quote goes: "Truth is the hardest tale to tell, for each heart holds a different truth. This truth is held by mine."
I learned this the hard way I fear after attending an LDS singles conference with Kjersha last weekend in St. Louis, and after learning more in the aftermath...
I had met someone who shall remain nameless. We started hanging out and spending time together during said conference. We even danced together several times and I felt such an innocent pleasure in it. I was exhilerated that he found me beautiful and attractive.
And then the other friend and I go back home to IC, and I, having exchanged contact info with him, decide to wait before emailing him, not wanting to come on too strong. And I get busy with getting back to my own life, work and school. So he sends me an email via Facebook two nights ago that he had met a wonderful woman several months ago and that they were to be married in the spring.
Hence the quote to this entry, "Truth is the hardest tale to tell." Because he could've told me about his engagement before any flirting on his or my part went on. Instead, he flirted with me, and let me flirt with him. I was angry and I was very hurt. I had been used and abused, because he needed someone to make him feel good, and I was right there and lonely and vulnerable; I was reeled right into his web. I'm well on my way to being over it, and ready to write him off romantically, especially after finding out about some things that he'd done in the past.
Here's hoping that I don't get to the point where I trust no man, because that would be truly sad. I want to be able to give myself to someone special for eternity, but that won't happen if I can't trust any man. Right now, I must heal from this, which I am doing, and get on with my life; which includes preparing to go to the Nauvoo Pageant this summer for two weeks, and continuing on with school, as well as my goal to move out to Utah and be in the middle of Mormon country.
Slan go foill...
I learned this the hard way I fear after attending an LDS singles conference with Kjersha last weekend in St. Louis, and after learning more in the aftermath...
I had met someone who shall remain nameless. We started hanging out and spending time together during said conference. We even danced together several times and I felt such an innocent pleasure in it. I was exhilerated that he found me beautiful and attractive.
And then the other friend and I go back home to IC, and I, having exchanged contact info with him, decide to wait before emailing him, not wanting to come on too strong. And I get busy with getting back to my own life, work and school. So he sends me an email via Facebook two nights ago that he had met a wonderful woman several months ago and that they were to be married in the spring.
Hence the quote to this entry, "Truth is the hardest tale to tell." Because he could've told me about his engagement before any flirting on his or my part went on. Instead, he flirted with me, and let me flirt with him. I was angry and I was very hurt. I had been used and abused, because he needed someone to make him feel good, and I was right there and lonely and vulnerable; I was reeled right into his web. I'm well on my way to being over it, and ready to write him off romantically, especially after finding out about some things that he'd done in the past.
Here's hoping that I don't get to the point where I trust no man, because that would be truly sad. I want to be able to give myself to someone special for eternity, but that won't happen if I can't trust any man. Right now, I must heal from this, which I am doing, and get on with my life; which includes preparing to go to the Nauvoo Pageant this summer for two weeks, and continuing on with school, as well as my goal to move out to Utah and be in the middle of Mormon country.
Slan go foill...
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