Dating anxiety

Reflections:

I’ve never married. I hope to, and that’s why I went to a speed dating event the night before my birthday. I had fun just talking to different guys, and later dancing with a few of them. I made some decent friendships.

However, when I learned that I had two matches that came out of it, I was stunned! Amid my panic to not screw it up and come on strong, that’s exactly what happened! I almost had an anxiety attack over it yesterday.

I think I know why. I have a bad feeling that I was trying to sabotage it because of what happened to me years ago when I almost married an abusive man. I know not all men are like my ex-fiancé, and that I have a chance with a good man now.

I’m going to get a priesthood blessing this weekend so I can finish out my healing. I was able to get rid of one thing that I held onto that he’d given me, and now that I don’t use that item, it’s helping me in completing my healing.

However, I also firmly believe that the pressure that I felt was after a chat with someone about my matches. I was asked if I had gone out with either man.

Please don’t ask me that going forward. It contributed to the misunderstanding and my anxiety.

Thanks for reading. Slan go foil...